21 Weeks PP

Ha ha....ha....hhaaaaa...I feel like there are many things that have prevented me from working out lately (AKA FINISHING INSANITY!), like working a lot and having some ridiculous dizzy spells that made me unable to get around my house without holding on to furniture, but I'm soldiering on and feeling perfectly fine today. It's harder than I expected to combine the randomness of my life with that intense program. If all goes according to plan (When does it ever? Would be a nice change!), I will be done on Monday night! Time to DO THIS!!
As far as stats go, I gained two freakin pounds this week. I blame it on trying to eat all day yesterday when I was feeling dizzy, but who knows. According to my fancy scale, I gained half a percentage of muscle, which is the most I have ever gained in one week. I also gained a little fat too, so that sucks. I know there are ups and downs though and while I know people are pretty supportive about how I look now (thank you, guys), it's just not gonna work for me. So...yeah. I'm not trying to be a whiny little bitch about it or say I'm fat, but I'm fat for me and feel this pressure coming from the outside to "just relax, you look fine". I maintain pretty high standards for myself and because I know I can be better, I'm not interested in mediocrity. I really think I WILL reach a point where I am happy with at least my weight and frame, and I will gladly acknowledge when that time comes, but that day is certainly not today!
In the meantime, coming soon: Insanity completion post!!

Total weight gained: 46 lbs
Weight lost: 39 lbs
Weight left to lose: 7 lbs
Fat %: 23.2
Muscle %: 39.0