13 Weeks PP

This week was ROUGH. "Insanity" is teaching me a lot about myself. It is hard and painful. I never ever want to do it. I will miss a day and then double up the next day, which SUCKS. And because I hate it so much, it's very difficult for me to do it at night when I'm exhausted from the day. So I have determined that the only way I will get through it is to do it first thing in the morning, when I am at my peak energy level. I can do that, eat and take a break, and still make it to my Stroller Strong Mom class by 9:30am. That way, yoga in the evenings will be calming and enjoyable.
I am having major issues with food. I don't eat enough. With breastfeeding all day and working out and barely eating more than my toddler's left-overs, I have been feeling very weak. Lately my rule with "Insanity" is to just turn the freakin DVD on. Then just start the workout. Okay, not so bad. Don't look at the clock because 40 minutes is a looooong time. Ok. Some days I feel like an effin superhero and can actually keep up with the crazies on the screen! Other days (especially this week) I have been trying to just keep moving the whole time, pathetically and slowly getting through the exercises. But I have learned that I NEED TO EAT. I am burning way too many calories. I lost 3 lbs this week and 1% body fat. It's apparently effective to be malnourished, but not recommended, because I cannot function. I cannot clean my house and don't feel like doing anything. I need to find a way to make sure I am refueling. Another problem I have is that if I feel even remotely stressed, the first thing I will do is not eat. And that happens a lot. Also, with babies it's easy not to eat. If I'm running late in the morning, all I care about is getting them fed and dressed. If I don't have time for myself, I don't do it. It's certainly a very difficult balance. So aside from yet another attempted schedule change, my only major goal this week is to eat more. It's a funny goal for someone who is trying to lose weight. :)
Onward.


Total weight gained: 46 lbs
Weight lost: 33 lbs
Weight left to lose: 13 lbs
Fat %: 25.2
Muscle %: 37.5